Do you ever feel like your life moves in seasons? Not always by the ones determined by the rotation of the earth, but rather by the turmoils (or lack thereof) that life throws at you. For the last three years I felt like I’d been stuck in the winter of life, until now.

When Covid began, I felt my life fall into autumn. Everything I had worked so hard to build for myself was starting to fall away. In March 2020, I had 3 part time jobs on top of my full time degree. I was creating YouTube videos for my channel every week. I was shadowing a director. I had a really great group of friends. I was newly in love, and everything in my life felt like it was moving in the direction I wanted it to. And then it all slipped away.



The leaves of my life began to brown and fall to the ground, I lost my jobs and many of my friends. I started taking medication for my anxiety. I lost my motivation to create. It felt as if the winds had shifted in my life and the growth I had once seen all around me was now fading into darkness.
It wasn’t all bad, just as no season ever is. There are many moments I’m immensely grateful for and things we did I’m so proud of. I got married and I moved overseas. Two really big, really brave, really exciting life changes.

But winter remained. The frost killed our crops and the snow storms rattled our windows. And just as in real winters, we wondered if the cold would ever leave us. The world was dark and it became really hard to look to the future with longing. All you can do is wait. For three long years, I waited. And as determined as I was, it was hard sometimes to hold onto hope. I just kept reminding myself that it was only a season. And spring would soon come.
In Ireland, the worst 2 weeks of winter are just before spring breaks. It’s the coldest it gets, with the days really short. Everyone will tell you it’s the worst time of year here, but there is hope. Because you know that soon enough the skies will clear, the flowers will bloom, and you know that life will soon be brighter.
This year, just as the winds in Ireland shifted to autumn, I felt the winds in my life shift. Something big had changed, something intangible and yet very real. I kept looking back to who I was this time last year and couldn’t help but feel so far away from the depressed and hopeless girl I was. Spring has sprung in my life, brighter days are coming.



I feel alive again. Ready to tackle the goals I’ve had sitting on the back burner for the last three years. I feel as if, by moving house, changing jobs and realigning myself with my passions, that I’ve deep cleaned my life. I’ve weeded the garden and pruned the branches. I’ve created room in my life for new. I’m ready to grow again. To travel and experience new things. To let my life bloom and let myself blossom.

As I sit here (in yet another new coffee shop I’m trying), I can’t help but feel the excitement for life brew inside of me. I’m open to new experiences, new relationships, new hobbies and fashion styles. New adventures. I’ve started working on my book again. We’ve planned a few upcoming trips. We’ve been decorating our little apartment.
All feels well in the world. It feels anew.
And I’m not trying to be naive about it. I know winter will come again. But I’m on a mission in my life to try and enjoy the now. And I implore you to do the same. Every season of life brings something beautiful… the spring brings flowers, the summer brings warmth, the autumn brings colour and the winter brings snow. And maybe the biggest difference you can make in your life is changing how you view it.
When you feel the winds shift, try to prepare for the season to come. And when it arrives, appreciate all it has to bring.
I’m preparing for summer in my life. For growth and character development. For stability and warmth. I’m planting flowers I want to grow, I’m making space for things I want to gain. And so, with a heart full, and arms open I say, “Hello Spring, I’ve missed you.”

With love, from Dublin,
Chey
There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens:
A time to be born and a time to die,
A time to plant and a time to uproot
A time to kill and a time to heal
A time to tear down and a time to build
A time to weep and a time to laugh
A time to mourn and a time to dance
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather them
A time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing
A time to search and a time to give up
A time to keep and a time to throw away
A time to tear and a time to mend
A time to be silent and a time to speak
A time to love and a time to hate
A time for war and a time for peace…
[and] He has made everything beautiful in its time.
– Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11.
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